I Dream of Happiness
I don't even know what to write...***
Now I realized how much I've lost myself along the way. My 20 years of existence, I thought I was pursuing dreams, but rather I was going after expectations of people around me.
Isn't that crazy?
I used to be that girl who likes to read, watch, and write about life and love. I was lost in music and stories that brought me to different dimensions of serenity and joy.
It was my purpose to find happiness. I was never a genuinely happy kid, but I was never too pessimistic about being unhappy.
I always had that hope, that someday, somewhere, I will find that happiness. Happiness that isn't just imagined from the books I've read or the songs I've listened to.
HAPPINESS isn't a far-fetched thing though. Among the choices life has laid in front of me, I knew which would make me happy.
But isn't happiness a scary thing?
Scary because of the people that would get hurt along the way.
Because happiness could make you selfish.
Scary because it's different from everyone else's.
Because being unique doesn't give you definite answers.
Someday, I want to choose being selfish.
Someday, I want to choose being different.
Someday, I want to choose happiness.
PLAYLIST OF THE DAY
YOUTH by Troye Sivan
HERE by Alessia Cara
THINKIN ABOUT YOU by Frank Ocean (Ryan Hemsworth Bootleg)
FIREFLY by Mura Masa ft. Nao
B's & H's by Jhene Aiko
DAYS IN THE WEST by Tinashe (Drake Cover)(Ekali Remix)
GOLD by Kiiara
Labels: playlist, random thoughts
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